I love me some Gayle Forman she warms my heart which is hard to do but this book goes above and beyond for anyone who has lost a friend this is an absolute honest portrayal of the feelings you go through wanting to find someone else to blame even if its yourself so that you can morn purely without that flicker inside you telling you not to feel pain for them because they did it themselves and at the end you hate them and love them and want to kick their grave stone and scream